Isu PTPTN lagi ~!

Assalamualaikum..
aduhaii .. again & again . tadi, dalam pukul 12.30, aku ada la call pihak PTPTN di talian hotline dorang tu : 0320804455 . so aku tanya laa, kenapa duit aku tak masuk lagi
then aku tanya lagi apa status aku. lepas customer service tu mintak number kad pengenalan aku,
dia bagitau aku yang pihak PTPTN tak dapat lagi aku punya borang bertulis tu ..
aku rasa cam FUCK OFF sikit la sebab aku rasa memang aku hantar dekat PEJABAT HAL EHWAL PELAJAR (HEP) taii macam mana boleh jadi macam tu ?? so Customer Service to pon suruh aku pi balik HEP tanya. so aku dengan bergegasnya pergilah dekat HEP , penat gila !
so sampai dekat kaunter. so aku tanya laaa..
''cik tadi saya ada call pihak PTPTN, tapi dorang cakap borang maklumat tu belum sampai lagi dekat dorang punya pangkalan data''
so dia balas:
''kejab ea, nak semak, log, nama adik memang ada tapi kami dah hantar dah, takpa adik, sila datang lagi khamis ni, tanya sendiriu puan sekian sekian sekian ''

p/s: damn it. takkan lah nak tunggu sampai next sem kot. jatuh miskin la aku camni. takkan aku nak susuahkan ayaha aku lagi kot. ishh. tak sampai hati la nak susahkan dorang lagi. huhu T.T

okay now aku perlukan sedikit kesabaran. :/ inshaAllah. semuanya akan okay. dan aku pon harap macam tu la hendaknya :') nasib kan jadi camni :) tapi btw, apart from that, aku ada jugak benda baik nak kongsi,  hehe. untuk TEST 3 Microbe :) alhamdulillah, test ni masuk pasal meiosis and mitosis. hehe. aku rasa aku tak CONFIDENT langsung masa jawab.
seriously aku cuak gila babeng. hehe. so result tak menghampakan.
Alhamdulillah, I got 26/30
hehehe. Bak akata diri aku sendiri

EXPECT for the UNEXPECTED 

Hehehe. so paper pon doakan aku untuk FINAL MICROBE esok !! inshaAllah !

pre-SPEAKING for MUET

recently just done with my pre-speaking test for MUET during BEL Class today! i volunteered my self to the speaking test that needed for 4 members in group to start. i have to brave myself, i want to overcome my fear of talking in front others with my point. worried that it's not an appropriate suggestions and reason. 2 boys that volunteered are me, and wafri, and the rest, 2 girls had been chosen by Madam Azreen. we were given a task about roles of parent(me), school(wafri), and others(sorry i couldnt remember them) that were delivered by shazleen and shahirah hasim. frankly speaking, i didnt satisfy with my performance, there are lot of hesitation that could be sense by madam, especially on my sentence structure and countless errors on GRAMMAR! i really need to pay more attention to grammar and i must do something to make me calm as i seemed to be nervous while pointing my opinions. by the way, madam had given the BAND based on MUET, i managed to got Band 4, shazleen, high band 3, shahirah and wafri both got band 3. i could see my hand shivered . fuhhhh .. that was a nervous moment when i need to use all the 2 minutes given wisely to point out our ideas and make a short conclusion of them. by the way, another disappointment moment for today is when i got my CHEMISTRY TEST result! disappointed with ONLY 13 1/2 ! i think im the lowest among my friends! T.T really sad to hear a TREMENDOUS result like this. but, i know i dont need to disappoint as im the one who destines my result. madam khamsatul had seen me after phyiscs lecture, she advice me to form study group. i could sense disappointment on her face. im sorry, madam :( my problem, i dont have friends to start with. if i asked insyirah, hanis and suffi, will they willing to help me? madam suggested that i should come learn with her on WEDNESDAY. i would probably say yes. but i need extra helps from friends that i closed to. ok. now proceed to bio, miss hamizah came for tutorial, she said that 5 members of C5 were failed ! include ONE boy, i think that's me ! ya Allah. i couldnt bear to this anymore. i need to work hard, get a good result for my parents! i need and i must!

the BIG 2 things tomorrow O.O

Assalamualaikum.. 

tomorrow will be my day of these 2 TESTS, CHEMISTRY and PHYSICS ! BOTH are among subjects that ARE being hated by STUDENT  till now, dont make them as them as your ENEMY:) ehhh.. kenapa perlu benci subject ni kan. isnt AMAZING and FUN subject to be LEARNED ?? Is it sound too SARCASTIC . NO! haha, im trying to confront my own self to LOVE them to the fullest :) they are my new love now. :) so to make sure both of them are being treated WELL by me :) it is just LIKE TREATING WIVES, you need to be righteous! right? haha. so aku kena bertindak adil, baca fizizk harini, keesokannya kimia, amazing. amazing amazing ! haha. sudah sudah la. entri kali memang pendek dan menyerabutkan kepala! ok. selamat berpuasa semua, jadikan hari esok lebih baik dari hari sebelumnya! :) insyaAllah. and i hope i could do my best DURING tests, insyAllah.

Ramadhan and TEST :D

RAMADHAN datang menjenguh kembali ! yakni pada esok hari, tercermin kegembiraan di wajah wajah  SEKELIAN manusia di sekeliling hidupku :D ramadhan tahun ni sangat sangat bermakna, in case that this is my first RAMADHAN ever that I use to got through this fasting month as UNIVERSITY TODAY! a bit nervous on how my life is going on here. as we still need to use the 'THE STAIRWAYS TO HEAVEN'. and of course it's something compulsory as it is the only fastest ways to lecture, (instead for those who that often use the BUS or riding MOTORCYCLE!) ok this will be a best year from me, as before, in school i dont have to climb up the stairs and just went back from school to hostel as it is just takes less than 4 minutes from school. that's great, no too tired. so when im here, i still couldnt imagine, how tired am i going to be :D haha.. btw, besides RAMADHAN, another important next weeks is:

 TEST! i cant describe this scary word! seriously, it makes me feel im in between death and live, im scared! for the reason that

+ im not doing any revision YET!

+ Mr. Physics badly whack me every single day with its

+Mr. Chemist is mixing my brains with an unknown chemical substance that lead me to blur ! haha

btw, i really enjoy my BEL(ENGLISH) class very well :D this is not a tension subject to be learned of!

seriously. i can't bear to this fear! i can count the days before test using all my fingers! a bit scary, and even more scarier knowing my self at the peak of weakness --, i dont know, which subject i need to revise first. seems to be hard for me, as i can't count how many topics that i lost during lectures due to sleepiness, out of focus, and for sure, i want to get rid of them, my enemies, yet my own self --,

im shaking, SERIOUSLY. thinking about all those problems that rounding my head without  being considerate to me . T.T haha. btw, i'll go to RSU to perform my first TARAWIH for this year! im exited, yet still want to spend my night with tarawih, then go through with QUICK revision with HAIRUL, and hope it's work! AMIN. insyaAllah, moga kita bertemu di sekelian hari, ASSALAMUALAIKUM

di kesempatan ini, aku nak ucap selamat menyambut ramadhan al-mubarak! semoga dapat menunaikan ibadat dengan sebanyak mungkin untuk mendapatkan balasan pahala yang tidak ternilai harga. mari isi masa di bulan ramadhan dengan sesuatu yang memberi manafaat kepada diri sendiri dan orang lain!